Porn ruined my self confidence HELP!? My friend and I were out and the coexistence of 3 years. First, the sex life was great, I knew he saw porn and I didn't care, I myself with him. But after about a year and half, he confessed to me that he begin to live his life by gods rules, and I wanted that very respect. We talked about how we will no longer have sex until we are married, and although it was hard, it was worth it b / c I love him. We're still in this rule, but we slip here and there (especially if he intiates it because I want him being under pressure when I start it and usually when I initiate, he pushes me away feel), and sometimes he confuses me and tells me that the spontainious not enough. anyway this was just a little backround info for the real problem ... He was watching porn, and I knew, and I was thinking ok just random girls and it is only to observe what they do and do it with me to the idea and this has helped me until recently and when I takes a couple of found Megan Fox Nude on our computer ... I thought that it is to imagine, no action for him, he does with me, There is only this beautiful woman with a sexy body and larger breasts when I was sitting there naked. The worst part is that he saw while I was in the other room and I am always ready and willing for him, I just hold back and wait for him to come to me because, as I mentioned earlier I dont want him taking Pressure set feel and if he rejects me hurts. The other day I was talking about the things that I want on my body by joining the gym to fix, and he didn't even try slideshows to calm me join, I didn't need the gym. Im not a big girl (110 pounds 53), but I just wanted to tone my body, and he just stared straight and didn't speak. I feel like he doesn't find me sexy and would tend to be more certain girl, whom he thinks are hot on the Internet will see me to see naked. It is really affecting my self I feel gross and unwanted .... I do not want to confront with him b / c I dont want him to think I was snooping around the computer ... try to find something about him ... someone please let me know if in the wrong, and feel so upset? I do not understand exactly why he was the sin and care with me, but sin and lust after other women ... I feel like I dont do it for him more ... please help
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